“By whatever path you go, you will have to lose yourself in the One.” Ramana Maharshi.
(Thoughts) And if you hold that life is simply material with no ascendant Reality what-so-ever and that all this came together by chance, it won’t make any difference. That is just another thought form that belies Reality. That denial is on the path too. Incredible though it seems from a materialist perspective, you are a Spiritual being, and one day it (your spiritual essence) will reassert itself, and if not in this life then another. But since proof only lies in experience there has to be a moment of awakening even to the possibility. Mystics call this a moment of Grace.