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Yogas chitta vritti nirodha

‘Yoga is mastery of the modifications of the mind’.

From Patangali’s Yoga Sutras.


There is an impulse behind every thought that drives us onwards in the belief that mind is real and that WE are Mind.  If we withdraw from the dialogue and dispassionately watch the impulse that generates that dialogue that we identify as My Mind, thoughts that can be so intrusive and so damaging at their darkest simply vanish as if they were smoke. This applies to all thoughts – happy or sad.  There can be no distinction. So what was mind?  The more one practices this the more of a habit it will become.  Slowly, like a blessing, a peace emerges.

Q – Quite so; but just what is the impulse referred to?

A It appears that there is a tiny wordless impulse behind every thought.  We are so habitual of being in the dialogue that we don’t see the wordless impulse.  Its so quick. Impulses are generated from external or internal stimulation.  Environment, body or imagination.  We habitually run with them and therefore mind is constantly noisy and busy.  Single sentences become volumes of rhetoric.  The impulse occurs due to Ego.  Mind is a ghost projected by Ego.  When we realise that we are thinking and not watching, the act of putting our attention on the sensation withdraws our attention from the dialogue and the dialogue dissolves.  The impulse is then replaced by another and we watch that too.  It too disappears.  In therapy we can use the dialogue to access the sensation but in the end that process is not necessary.  It becomes our habit to be permanently in the Seer.   Hence to quote my teacher, ‘Be a Seer not a Thinker’.  The Seer is the Self.

(Quote) by Joanna Macy. HEARING THE CALL

A QUOTE from an article in Resurgence Magazine.

“So we learn again that hardest and most rewarding of lessons: how to make friends with uncertainty; how to pour your whole passion into a project when you can’t be sure it’s going to work. How to free yourself from dependence on seeing the results of your actions. These learnings are crucial, for living systems are ever unfolding in new patterns and connections. There is no point from which to foresee with clarity the possibilities to emerge under future conditions.”

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In 1986 I was in India studying Samkhya Philosophy with a remarkable teacher.  How I came to be there is another story but after six months immigration law decreed that I had to leave India because my visa had ran out. Since I was not prepared to spend three months in a Nepalese jungle, so that I could return to India for another six months with a renewed visa, as my room-mate Kevin did, I went to Canada, on to Kent, Ohio in America, back to Kitchener and Waterloo in Canada and then back home to the UK.  I was away eleven months in all.

Shortly after I reached Canada I was invited to go to see a friend called Shivdat Talwar.  Shiv is a warm, kind, gentle man, also from India, who was a professor at the local university.  I arrived and a few moments later was shown into the sitting room where  two men, both Indian, were engrossed in conversation.  They stopped and looking up introduced themselves.  One lived permanently in Canada and the other had recently arrived from India on a visit.  I was told that he spoke very little English.  I sensed from him a brooding, arrogant hostility.

 After a moment or two the one who lived in Canada said, “This is my friend from India.  He is a very famous astrologer and he has cast a horoscope for the next person to walk into the room and that’s you.  Do you mind if he reads it to you.”

 “But”, I said, “he knows nothing about me so how can he write my horoscope?”

 “It’s not for you”, he said, “its for this place and this time.”

 “Okay” I said trustingly.

 The man from India picked up a small piece of paper that lay on the table.  On it he had written a simple statement.  He handed it to his friend who proceeded to read it aloud.

“The person to whom this horoscope relates is a renunciate in the wrong garb.  He left worldly life due to pain.  That pain is now passing away.  He will go back into worldly life and live out his days as an ordinary man.’

 I noted that the man from India had distanced himself from being wrong by handing it to the other to read.  The reader looked up at me and asked, “Well, is it right.”

I was shocked.  “It is surprisingly accurate.”  I affirmed to the astrologer.  He had expressed what I had silently acknowledged for some time but was determined to resist.  I turned to the man holding the piece of paper.  “Can he tell me anything else?”

“What ‘ you want to know?”  said the astrologer sharply in perfectly acceptable clipped English.

“Will I get back together with my wife?” I asked earnestly, suspecting that I knew the answer before I had asked the question.

“Why do you still love her after what she did to you.”  The implication was that I was a foolish and infatuated man.  “She is (socially) in her proper place now.” he continued, “Forget about her.”

“If only it were that easy,” I thought.  I fell silent for a moment then ventured, “Will I be married again?”

“I cannot tell’, he said haughtily, “You have been married too many times in this life for me to be able to tell.”  He seemed to draw a certain smug satisfaction from putting me down.

The other man explained and I understood that in India an intimate sexual relationship was a marriage. “Okay,” I said, “but have you any advice?”

“Yes, you should go back to the UK and start your business again.  Can you do that?” I nodded.  “Whatever you put your mind to you will be very successful. But there are two dates that are dangerous for you. On either of these dates you could be married again.”  He read them out and I noted them down.

I was called to go.  “Thank you.” I said putting my hands together, “Namaste.”  As I rose to leave the astrologer handed me the piece of paper, which I later taped into my diary.  I still have it.

He was accurate on all counts even the dates he gave me.  I was, in Indian terms at least, married on both dates.  But this was not the most disturbing thing he said to me that day.  The harshest thing he told me was that I would live out my life as an ordinary man.  I knew what he meant and for two years I struggled with that small piece of information because Seers are not ordinary men. To a man with such soaring ambition his statement felt like a curse that I could try to ignore but which had found its mark!


This is a small part of a conversation between Ramana Maharshi and a Lady Bateman:  His explanation of the nature of Mind is simple.

“There is a fixed state; sleep , dream and waking states are mere movements in it. They are like pictures moving on the screen in a cinema show. Everyone sees the screen as well as the pictures but ignores the screen and takes in the pictures alone. The Jnani however considers only the screen and not the pictures. The pictures certainly move on the screen yet do not affect it. The screen itself does not move but remains stationary. Similarly, a person travels in a train and thinks that he moves. Really speaking he sits and reposes in his seat, and it is the train which is steaming fast. He however superimposes the motion of the train on himself because he has identified himself with the body. He says, “I have passed one station – now another – yet another – and so on”. A little consideration will show that he sits unmoved and the stations run past him. But that does not prevent him from saying that he has travelled all the way as if he exerted himself to move every foot of the way. The Jnani is fully aware that the true state of Being remains fixed and stationary and that all actions go on around him. His nature does not change and his state is not affected in the least. He looks on everything with unconcern and remains blissful himself. His is the true state and also the primal and natural state of being. When once the man reaches it he gets fixed there. Fixed once, fixed ever he will be”

(Thoughts)  So when we engage with trying to find a reason for our anguish or for that gnawing feeling we wake with every morning we are engaging with the dream.  We are lost in the drama.  Trying to figure it all out IS the madness.  Edifices of meaning that seem to solve the problem by offering a reason, provide short term respite, even a sense of elation, but always collapse to be replaced by despair then more edifices. The more intelligent the sufferer the more complex the edifice, the more profound the madness.  Observing the pain (the actual sensation) and not making it mean anything is the only cure.   If in watching an insight comes then that is a bonus.  It takes practice but it’s not impossible.

(Thoughts) BE INSPIRED.

Those of us who stand for freedom and justice and a generosity of spirit stand for what is the best in humanity; of what it means to be human. Our passion is for fairness and freedom from suffering that is intrinsic to well-being, and also enlightenment. This is not a cause that imposes itself on any human being. It is though, our birthright and will not be silenced for long.

There are many who fear it. Those who oppose this freedom and would impose their tyranny on all beings, simply in order to preserve the status quo for the sake of the few, stand in opposition to the best of what we are and in opposition to freedom from suffering.


“Who looks outside dreams; who looks inside awakens.

Carl Jung.

“Even though the reality of the Self has been stated in many ways, it remains untold. The self is known only by Experience. That Experiential Awareness of the Self is prevented by the mind due to the firmly established conviction that “I am the body, ego/mind”. 

Ramana Maharshi.


When reading any of this material you are best advised to look to the implied meaning of emphasised words and not merely read the word as it is used in common speech. Mysticism has always demanded penetrative insight – almost out of perversity – to goad the enquirer to look deeper.  It, therefore, takes a little time and application to understand how the term Consciousness is used in mysticism, particularly if this is unfamiliar territory. You are advised to forget what the term has come to mean in neuroscience, medicine and psychology and in modern parlance that assumes complicity in a superficial philosophical view.  In Mysticism the word Consciousness has a more elusive and far more profound meaning and in respectful deference to all Mystics, they did get there first.

The nature of Consciousness as the term is used in mysticism is not an idea that can be grasped merely by reading an article or even a book or two.  It is a concept informed and corroborated by experience that has to be harvested over many years.  It is a concept that eventually penetrates everything we think we know.  Neither is its nature a question of opinion or belief in something vague or speculative. Consciousness exists independent of the existence of any animated life form.  Consciousness, as realised by mystics, is a fundamental aspect of the cosmic matrix, as real as the material that forms the universe. It is not an imagined Idea. This is not intended to sound like fundamentalism though I accept that at first, it may do so.

If you have the time to read and reflect on the content of this blog, it will become apparent that the way Consciousness is defined in mysticism dramatically alters the way we perceive life.  When we fully integrate this concept into our notion of existence it impacts everything. It does this by profoundly reorganising our Conceptual Hierarchy forcing us to re-examine ideas modern society considers primary and inviolably sacred and yet which are, when seen from a metaphysical point of view, actually spurious. The Mystic (and the Yogi) eventually come to live in an entirely different and unconventional conceptual reality; one that manifests what we all desire – a deep sense of happiness and well-being.  We each seek this gem even if we are not aware that it drives us.  Worldly desires are the carrot dangling on a stick that we fruitlessly chase in pursuit of enduring happiness and contentment until it occurs to us to ask, “Who is holding the stick”.  Were that not so then all these words would be so much idle rhetoric.

It would though, be naïve to presume that we could all suddenly be happy simply by adopting an idea that sages have pondered for centuries.  What most of us do not realise is that we have been duped, even brainwashed, by the prevailing ignorance of a sophisticated yet Spiritually bankrupt society into a way of thinking about life that ensures that an enduring experience of happiness and well-being is actually impossible.  In 21C society, rationalism, and its bedfellow Atheism, dominates as the prevailing mindset; a mindset that considers Spiritual Intuition as archaic and irrelevant in the search for answers to the mystery that presents as Existence.  This is largely because Spirituality is seen as being synonymous with a Religious Belief when religious belief is a social phenomenon and another thing entirely.  We have learned to be extremely mistrusting of subjective experiences as being wholly unreliable as a basis on which to construct theories that challenge this normality even to the extent that we label them illness or psychosis when in fact they are often glimpses of a Spiritual Reality.  ‘Enlightenment’, Swami Bawra once told me, ‘is mastered madness’.  To walk the path is to walk a knife-edge and any peace manifested this way does not materialise through feint endeavour.  It seems to me fundamental that we learn to recognise the difference between Delusions (or in extreme cases Spiritual Psychosis) and Stable Insight if we are ever to navigate what is a very mysterious ocean.

It has always been something of a mystery to me that in its search for an explanation for Consciousness contemporary researchers focus on the Illusory Effect (the complex activities of Mind) and ignore as being irrelevant any explanations for the origins of Consciousness offered by mystics, choosing to see any insight they can offer as being merely Religious and rooted in blind faith.  This is a position informed by a lamentable lack of Profound Understanding.

If we really wish to understand the nature of Consciousness we have to set aside our empirical criteria for investigation and accept that our body and mind must become the laboratory and in faith accept that Subjective Experience will finally deliver the singular insight (Knowledge from whence all else proceeds) that is Reality – Consciousness.

Long before scientific rationalism dominated our thinking Mystics observed that Consciousness did not originate in the brain; rather that the brain is a kind of port through which Consciousness, with its own unique properties, shines and in doing so gives rise to self-awareness and the phenomenon that is animated life and in a material component (Nature)  that is otherwise inanimate and insentient.

Depicted diagrammatically the two positions look like this:

The first of these diagrams is the empirical version that yields only unresolved complexity.  It offers beguiling explanations but not truths.

The second depicts the mystical view, which is that Consciousness itself is immaterial in every sense and not generated by the biology we take to be ‘us’ as thinking beings but rather causes that biology to manifest thinking beings.  From this singular understanding proceed more complex models and concepts.  Without this insight, ideas are merely bits of discordant information floating unrelated in an endless void – ideas only as profound as our personal ability at intelligent complex thought.  Intellectually brilliant but fundamentally flawed.  The property of Insight, (as distinct from learned academic material) is distinct in that what is revealed is not personal – it is not MY knowledge.  It is there to be Seen by anyone who can look without Egocentric interference.  Hence the term Seer.  One who Sees Essential Knowledge.

The ability to observe this phenomenon takes years of single-minded practice but it is not impossible and neither is it pointless.  Mastering this process is not for nothing; it has a pay-off that is so profound that it is spoken of with deep reverence.  In resolving this conundrum we come to experience an enduring state of sublime happiness or bliss, (our true nature) that is so profound that it eradicates all suffering by bringing the struggling illusory Mind to complete stillness.

Millions have touched this state by accident and have failed to appreciate the profound nature of the experience.  But even without understanding, the experience changes everything for the individual.  Where it is fleeting we will speak about it for the rest of our lives as a moment when we touched everything; understood everything; even merged with God.  Where it is prolonged and without mastery it brings a peculiar kind of madness and a unique kind of suffering.  Understanding this process and its implications sets us right.  According to mysticism realising the true origin of Consciousness is actually the pinnacle of human endeavour because Consciousness is what I Am.

Ramana Maharshi stated:

If there is a goal to be reached it cannot be permanent. The goal must already be there. We seek to reach the goal with the ego, but the goal exists before the ego. What is in the goal is even before our birth, that is, to the birth of the ego. Because we exist the ego appears to exist too. If we look on the Self as the ego then we become the ego, if as the mind we become the mind, if as the body we become the body.

It is the thought which builds up sheaths in so many ways. The shadow on the water is found to be shaking. Can anyone stop the shaking of the shadow? If it would cease to shake you would not notice the water but only the light. Similarly, take no notice of the ego and its activities, but see only the light behind. The ego is the thought `I’. The true `I’ is the Self.

Q: If it is just a question of giving up ideas then it is only one step to realization.

A: Realization is already there. The state free from thoughts is the only real state. There is no such action as realization. Is there anyone who is not realizing the Self? Does anyone deny his own existence? Speaking of realization, it implies two selves – the one to realize, the other to be realized. What is not already realized is sought to be realized. Once we admit our existence, how is it that we do not know our Self?